To not take granted

Its the holiday season, and i'm supposed tocome up with what i'm thankful for. So this is what i've come up with.

I am thankful for having a house to grow up in; and to live. I've been traveling to big cities lately and I see the homeless. It makes me think about how much I take for granted. Like caring parents, a safe home, actual friends too.

I'm happy to have 3 real friends. Not friends that talk behind my back or use me in any shape or form. Friends that take me in and take care of me when I need them most. People that laugh with me and see eye to eye with me (on most things). I find friendship incredible and I honestly do love them. Courtney Moore and Teresa Silva being two people who I can count on almost more than my own family. And Jordan Kidwell, who is not only my boyfriend but my best friend.


And then there is my family. I'm greatful for having parents who are loyal to what they do. My father has been working to support me and my sister ever since he was 18; after he lost his job he got back on his feet and got enrolled to a nursing school. Its been a year and a half since Air Bourne Express shut him down. How I have the things I have now, I don't know. I haven't exactly been making him the happiest father lately and he doesn't see eye to eye with me either, but I miss him and I do love him. My mom who cares so much about the animals that people toss out; she works hours and hours at the local humane society which sometimes actually gets on my nerves but i'm proud of her. My sister too, i've gone through some interesting incidents that have made me overly infuriated, sad and happy with her; but I love her to death. I love all of them. And i'm glad to have them.


I've also been thinking about school a whole lot. I've been slacking so much for the past two years & it's about time I focus more on it. It really is important. Everyone has to go through it, so i'm not the only one. So many people in the world would love to be able to go to school & be educated, but we all take it for granted. I take it for granted, and I really need to stop. I used to love school. I loved getting up in the morning (when I was a younger kid) & going to school and learning. I grew to absolutely hating every minute of school. I stopped paying attention, I just dreaded it.. I want to start loving it again. I really want to learn things from people. I want to meet people that can teach me how to be a better person. That would be great.

Ruins

The rock statue has collapsed in ruins. Only the base remains.

Rocks?

Yeah, so I'll be honest here..

I do not like this project. I'm not one for building or designing. Especially with natural resources available in my particular backyard. I used to build things with rocks when I was kid, so I stacked some rocks together.. Its not too creative. I haven't been in the mood for creativity lately.

Esca

latin word for food; food is good for you :)

Oreo Cream

Homemade chicken tacos and spanish rice with Pico de Gallo.

Aestas

I could post a thousand pictures and still not be able to show you how bizarre, and incredible my summer was.

This is Joseph, a sort of cousin from Chicago.

This is an endangered lizard called a Horny Toad that I caught while in Arizona. They shoot blood out of their eyes if they get agitated.

Goodbye to

the self destructive habit that took me three years to break. i'm ashamed to admit, but proud to say its been 10 months since the last time.

and

to criticizing other's beliefs, for I know I must respect others first if I want the same.

I scream for ice cream!

As a little girl, I remember dropping my ice cream more than ever actually getting to eat it.
Caramel Swirl is the best kind out there!c:

All is fair in love

war, and money. To me, sometimes all three are have the same exact definition. Of the millions of people and millions of activities and objects to love, these are it.

Money: Won't deny the fact that I can be a very materialistic person :p
Courtney Moore: my best friend

Devil May Cry: the greatest video game ever made.

Arizona: the world is beatiful, but this is my favorite place in it

Crystalline Water

Ice.
NOT my preferred weather.
It has a certain beauty though, it seems so pure. And it has a clarity, if only everything could be seen or understood with such clearness. But everything has an opposite, and that opposite of the beauty is vexation.
Ice can be sinister, just like everything else in this world.

Resolution

A new year's resolution:
To do atleast 10 things I have never done
Be less of a pessimist
Travel?
Avoid emotional paralization
Tone up and get fit (like usual)
:D

The Past

Nostalgia- desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness

I'm desiring a return to another part of the country. Its bittersweet but comforting to think about. To be with my family, to be by the ocean, to be a young child again. All are pastimes I miss more than I ever thought I would.